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Dean was trained at a very young age in combat and marksmanship. He's an expert in hand to hand, a plethora of firearms, knives, swords, and most weaponry.

He has a wealth of supernatural knowledge (pertaining to his world), including wards and sigils (like devil traps) that keep demons and angels in or out and the incantation to force a demon out of a possessed vessel. . He knows basic Enochian by heart. Even though he wasn't chosen as Rowena's protege, he does have knowledge of very basic spells and can perform them.

He carries with him a wealth of semi-useless pop culture knowledge. (He would find this to be an ability, or else I wouldn't list it.)

He is quite the distinguished chef, having singlehandedly provided for a spa retreat while on a hunt.

He is also quite the functional alcoholic. Often fighting and driving after having a few. (I'm not encouraging this, just using it as an example...).

When Chuck removes his "god armor" he's lived with for the last who knows how long, he's still a better than average fighter who uses his environment to his advantage.

Mentally, Dean Winchester perseveres. He is doggedly determined when he has a goal in mind. He very rarely gives up. And, when he does let himself, he always pulls himself back together. When he falls apart, he falls apart completely, but it's what happens after that counts. He moves forward. Always.

He is adaptive and good at adjusting to his circumstances. Even when he doesn't belong, he's good at joining the crowd. He's always been the brother with a role to play and a mission to fulfill.

He's the brother that carries out his orders. When he doesn't have doubts about the task at hand, he will complete it. Dean also has very strong morals that have greyed over the years - for the better. One of his friends is a werewolf, and she married a werewolf, and he sees past the 'monster' label now. As long as that monster isn't chowing down on the locals. He's disciplined, too. He will stick to the routine. He'll be the one cleaning his guns and doing the maintenance. He's become much more domestic.

Dean's humor is unmatched. His sarcasm is both a weapon and a masterclass in deflection. He will drop a pop culture reference at the top of the hat. While Dean may feign not being interested in something, Dean is actually a closet nerd. He's read every book on the shelf even if he doesn't advertise it, likewise his dad's journal. He has a very wide range of likes genre-wise and it gives him usable knowledge in his real world.

He is also very, very charming to the point of being flirtatious.

Dean is great at improvisation, often inserting himself into a town while on a case. He and his brother identify themselves as FBI agents often, in order to gain access.

On the flip-side from improvisation, when actually asked to act, Dean is stilted, does not have the talent, and is too focused on how he looks.

Mentally, he also has a very high pain tolerance. He's been tortured before. He's beaten to an inch of his life. On any given day he deals with ten more things than anyone else should plus guilt from any one thing in his head and he holds all that together. Dean makes it look effortless.

...It's anything but effortless.

Dean's emotional and mental weaknesses far outweigh his positive attributes. While he can be flirtatious, that flirtation can turn sexual and over the top on a dime. Dean can dip into the extra side. He's the himbo on Tinder you swiped right on, but that you won't meet again. Over the years, that side definitely hardened over in favor of being more of a "family man," and he's hardly had a single (arguable) love interest in years.

Dean shuts down very easily. He will hold a grudge. He will give someone the silent treatment. If he feels trust has been broken or like his broken moral code has been bent, he has to take time to process.

Dean's anger issues are borderline clinical. He will rage. He will go off, violently. He will destroy the hood of a car, he will punch a wall. He needs to put that energy somewhere else. He is a furious man. When everything hits the fan anything he holds in explodes. It's one of his constants. Recently, he believes Chuck (their God from their canon) messed with his anger management, but even without Chuck's meddling, Dean flies off the handle.

While Dean isn't naturally expressive, he does not have a good poker face if he's not trying. He will grumble, he will gripe, and he might even whine if he's not trying to conceal what he's thinking.

Dean represses years of trauma, disappointment and insecurity at all times. A lot of why Dean the way he is, is how his father treated him, and never believing he was enough for the guy. He always wanted to be his dad's favorite. He feels things deeply, but, expressing them is another issue entirely. It takes nearly dying one of the many times he did for him to say what's on his mind. Castiel gives him a declaration of love and Dean can barely process what's been said before it's too late. And, still, he focuses on 'the goodbye' part of it. Dean believes everyone leaves and everyone dies. He also believes that eventually, between his brother and him, he's the one who will die young. He also lives with the guilt of his actions, from not being there enough for Sammy, for things he did in Hell after dying, for failing Jack the first time.

Dean suffers from depression and PTSD. Often, he's the brother that will not hesitate to sacrifice himself. As far back as the second season, he has a suicidal streak and this never really breaks. Dean does not take care of himself. He's often seen eating burgers, fries, meats, and take out for almost every meal. Dean also has deep, deep issues with alcoholism, often drinking a whole six pack on his own, sometimes alone in his room. Whereas Sam goes for a run, Dean sleeps in. Dean uses alcohol, violence, and getting the job done as his crutches for ignoring everything else. One of his other vices, one night stands, has since decreased over the course of the series. Sex was a vice and a coping mechanism for him, but he's moved past that now. His eye is always on the end of the road, whether that ends bloody - or not. He's just now processing that maybe he has something to contribute, that's he's not as broken as he thinks. He's not daddy's blunt instrument. He loves. Dean does love, but he will express that love in different ways, more in a physical hug or gestures. Acts of kindness and physical touch would be his love languages. But, good luck with getting them. Despite that, he does not have a healthy view of himself and hasn't in a very long time.

A montage in the last episode does prove that Dean is capable of changing his habits, bettering himself, and making good choices. He's just too deep in the darkness for years to see what he's capable of. Even with Lisa by his side back in season 6, he's unable to live that life and have the normal job, because he doesn't feel like he deserves it. And, ultimately, because it puts Lisa and her kid, Ben in danger.

Finally, flip a coin on whether it's a negative or a positive, Dean is greatly self-sacrificing. He will sell his soul for his brother, erase the memories of his chosen family, or downright kill himself if it saves one person he loves. (Hell, one person he doesn't.) But, he will also fight tooth and nail to the death against insurmountable odds.

( They always come to with a gasp.

Maybe it's the drama of a near-death experience, or actually dying in Dean's case, that propels his chest upward as he comes to. His body's attempt at sitting up ends as abruptly as it began as a surge of pain travels up his spine and settles right where he remembers he was struck. He remembers it secondhand in pieces. He remembers the sweeping monologue, the vampire Jenny, the shittiest excuse for a pie festival and he swears to himself there was an underscore of music as he said his goodbye to Sam. As far as endings go, he went out poetically. But, he has a bone to pick with the 'how' and 'why.'

He doesn't get the luxury that other newcomers get. Answers from people in the same boat - or in this case, train - because he's in recovery sequestered away from whoever else is on board. He hurts himself on night one, passing out from the pain of an attempt at an escape. Night five he rips his stitches.

Having been to Hell itself with a capital H, he knows that's not what this is. But, having been to Heaven, he also knows this isn't that. If he were dead he'd be dead and if he were in Hell, he'd be tortured or doing the torturing. He deserves both.

He spends a day calling his caretaker Chuck, probably to their chagrin. But, he knows they depleted Chuck's magic. He knows Jack is now God. The next day, he's quiet, almost scared to call out to Jack or Cas.

Eventually, he has to accept his explanation at face value. He becomes a better patient. He makes progress within an acceptable time frame. He has something to live for, even if he doesn't know what it is.

In hindsight, it feels like the five stages of grief. He finally reaches acceptance. He wishes for Sam to find love. Dean can see it now: Sam settles down and doesn't devote his life to finding or resurrecting his brother. They've both been there and done that and had the literal book written about them. Dean knows Sam'll keep their hunter network going. He knows he'll take care of Miracle. He knows Sam will be okay.

Dean Winchester doesn't know what he is or how he feels. He knows there's a part of him that's at peace with his end, with his existence. Quips his caretaker doesn't understand fly as he clobbers his sense of humor back together brick by brick. He makes an inappropriate comment about being followed to the bathroom. He becomes the obnoxious but not impossible patient.

And then one day, he's up. He's maneuvering around. It hurts, but that just reminds him he can feel it hurt. Well, now. Time to meet the locals, isn't it?, he thinks. It can't get worse than being impaled on rebar. )

Name: Brandon
Age: 32
Contact: pepperwood and this journal

Character Name: Dean Winchester
Canon: Supernatural
Canon Point: Season 15, Episode 18 "Despair"
Appearance: Jensen Ackles
Age: 41

Character snapshot: Depending on who you are in his world (and in others), you've probably heard of Dean Winchester. From what you've heard, you don't want to make an enemy of him, or his brother. He's the loyal soldier raised by his father to protect his little brother, to save people, and to hunt things. He's daddy's "blunt little instrument," that actually has a very deep capacity for care, love, and loyalty, but his own self esteem issues and repression keep him from seeing that.

World description: The world of Supernatural is much like our world, except the supernatural exists. Urban legends, ghosts, vampires, witches, werewolves, djinn, and, later, we discover, demons and angels all exist. Other monsters exist, too, one-offs, usually. Demons and Angels use human bodies as vessels. In this world there is a hierarchy in hell and heaven. The king or queen of hell, and then over the course of the series, for heaven, the angel of the moment and, finally, God himself, a scruffy acoustic guitar playing writer that calls himself Chuck. There are also hunters who have been raised to hunt monsters. Additionally, there is a secret society, the Men of Letters, that Dean and his brother Sam are legacy members of. This expanded the world further to more research, filings, lost objects and a treasure trove in a bunker they were given a key to. In this world, Dean and Sam's lives were set in stone from the beginning thanks to God himself, whom we discover is writing the Winchesters' story. Further breaking the fourth wall, the Winchester's lives are chronicled in a book series aptly titled Supernatural. They have also attended fan conventions, encountered crazed fans, and witnessed a high school's musical version of their lives.

History: At a very young age, Dean Winchester lost his mother to a house fire. He saved his brother and watched as the house went up in flames. They idyllic Kansas life went up in smoke. Dean was brought into the family business early on, raised his brother out of motel rooms and was left behind with dad while his brother went to college. After their father disappears, Dean catches back up to his brother in Stanford for one final hunt. But, Sam's fiancee at the time, Jessica, dies in the same manner their mother did. What follows is years of solving their mother's murder and learning they're a part of a larger, biblical, prophecy - the perfect vessels for Lucifer (Sam) and the archangel Michael (Dean), destined to fight to the death. Over the course of the series, they never shed their codependency to one another, but they do acquire a second family, one that unconditionally loves them. An angel, Castiel, rebels against heaven's plan and becomes an ally, a friend, and later their closest thing to family. After refusing to kill a young nephilim they've been raising, Chuck kills him and releases souls from hell. When Dean and Sam further refuse to play his game, he begins to destroy other worlds he's created leaving the one Sam and Dean are in for last. The last thing that occurred was an Earth-cleansing snap save for Sam, Jack, and Dean. And God has decided that he'd rather watch Sam and Dean wilt away on a lifeless planet.

What are your character’s mental/emotional strengths? Mentally, Dean perseveres. He is doggedly determined when he has a goal in mind. He very rarely gives up. And, when he does let himself, he always pulls himself back together. When he falls apart, he falls apart completely, but it's what happens after that counts. He moves forward. Always.

He is adaptive and good at adjusting to his circumstances. Even when he doesn't belong, he's good at joining the crowd. He's always been the brother with a role to play and a mission to fulfill.

He's the brother that carries out his orders. When he doesn't have doubts about the task at hand, he will complete it. Dean also has very strong morals that have greyed over the years - for the better. One of his friends is a werewolf, and she married a werewolf, and he sees past the 'monster' label now. As long as that monster isn't chowing down on the locals. He's disciplined, too. He will stick to the routine. He'll be the one cleaning his guns and going the maintenance.

Dean's humor is unmatched. His sarcasm is both a weapon and a masterclass in deflection. He will drop a pop culture reference at the top of the hat. While Dean may feign not being interested in something, Dean is actually a closet nerd. He's read every book on the shelf even if he doesn't advertise it, likewise his dad's journal. He has a very wide range of likes genre-wise and it gives him usable knowledge in his real world.

He is also very, very charming to the point of being flirtatious.

Dean is great at improvisation, often inserting himself into a town while on a case. He and his brother identify themselves as FBI agents often, in order to get access to a case.

Mentally, he also has a very high pain tolerance. He's been tortured before. He's beaten to an inch of his life. On any given day he deals with ten more things than anyone else should plus guilt from any one thing in his head and he holds all that together. Dean makes it look effortless.

What are your character’s mental/emotional weaknesses? ...It's anything but effortless.

Dean's emotional and mental weaknesses far outweigh his strengths. While he can be flirtatious, that flirtation can turn sexual and over the top on a dime. Dean can dip into the extra side. He's the himbo on Tinder you swiped right on, but that you won't meet again.

Dean shuts down very easily. He will hold a grudge. He will give someone the silent treatment. If he feels trust has been broken or like his broken moral code has been bent, he has to take time to process. Dean's anger issues are borderline clinical. He will rage. He will go off, violently. He will destroy the hood of a car, he will punch a wall. He needs to put that energy somewhere else.

On the flip-side from improvisation, when actually asked to act, Dean is stilted, does not have the talent, and is too focused on how he looks.

While Dean isn't naturally expressive, he does not have a good poker face if he's not trying. He will grumble, he will gripe, he might even whine.

Dean represses years of trauma, disappointment and insecurity at all times. A lot of why Dean the way he is, is how his father treated him, and never believing he was enough for the guy. He always wanted to be his dad's favorite. He feels things deeply, but, expressing them is another issue entirely. It takes nearly dying one of the many times he did for him to say what's on his mind. Castiel gives him a declaration of love and Dean can barely process what's been said before it's too late. And, still, he focuses on 'the goodbye' part of it. Dean believes everyone leaves and everyone dies. He also believes that eventually, between his brother and him, he's the one who will die young.

Dean suffers from depression and PTSD. Often, he's the brother that will not hesitate to sacrifice himself. As far back as the second season, he has a suicidal streak and this never really breaks. Dean does not take care of himself. He's often seen eating burgers, fries, meats, and take out for almost every meal. Dean also has deep, deep issues with alcoholism, often drinking a whole six pack on his own, sometimes alone in his room. Whereas Sam goes for a run, Dean sleeps in. Dean uses alcohol, violence, and getting the job done as his crutches for ignoring everything else. One of his other vices, one night stands, has since decreased over the course of the series. Sex was a vice and a coping mechanism for him, but he's moved past that now. His eye is always on the end of the road, whether that ends bloody - or not. He's just now processing that maybe he has something to contribute, that's he's not as broken as he thinks. He's not daddy's blunt instrument. He loves. Dean does love, but he will express that love in different ways, more in a physical hug or gestures. Acts of kindness and physical touch would be his love languages. But, good luck with getting them.

What events or circumstances in your character’s past have impacted them the most? Saving his brother from their house burning down was the first big piece to Dean's puzzle. From then on, he cast himself as Sam's protector and savior. His big brother. Sam was his responsibility. He owed it to his mom and dad.

Dean sold his soul to bring Sam back from dying and a year later he went to hell. He spent years on the rack being tortured, but agreed to torture others from then on, as a trade. He lives with his trauma in hell and the knowledge that he became an expert in torturing innocent souls.

Castiel raising him from Hell shaped his character for the next eleven years. He had to reckon with his worth, if he even should've been saved. And from then on, he found his best friend. They had their ups and downs, but Castiel was one person besides his mother that (as it turns out) loved him unconditionally. It's used as a running joke for the most part, but Castiel's faith and trust in Dean Winchester alters the course of god's plan completely.

After Dean's mother, Mary, was resurrected, Dean learned the hard way that the image of someone you create for yourself doesn't always match up to who they are. He learned she's a real person, with real feelings. He learned he's most like his mother. He got to know her and hunt alongside her. And by the time she was gone again, it healed a part of him that always needed healing.

When a pearl brought back their father, Dean then made peace with him, too, and got to spend a family dinner with his closest family, all at the same table for the first time since before the fire. He has an illuminating conversation with his father, where he finally gets the recognition and the love he needs.

What impressions do others tend to have of your character and how do those impressions differ from who your character truly is? Dean is both a walking contradiction in how others see him and how he truly is.

Others would describe Dean Winchester as cocky, annoying, strong, and a fighter. He's a trained soldier. He's by the book. He's serious, but he can goof around. He drinks a little too much but you would to with his job, right? He's the hot brother. He's flannel and quips and he needs to take things a little more seriously. He can be an ass.

In truth, he lives with the world on his shoulders. He blames himself for almost everything and he holds himself to an impossible standard, thanks to his father. He is more afraid than he admits. Other than Castiel, nobody knows just how deeply he cares, feels, and loves. Dean barely understands how deep it goes.

What motivates your character? The biggest motivation Dean has, is, eventually it will end. Eventually he will reach the end of the road, whether that includes drinks on the beach or dying on a hunt. His brother is his next motivation. Sam's safety and the safety of his found family he's cultivated: Jodie, the girls, motivate him as well. Saving someone's life, and having life matter right now is his most intangible motivation. He's struggling with his life being Chuck's hamster wheel, and defeating that idea is something at the forefront of his mind.

How does your character handle crisis or adversity? Dean is the one that stays calm. He assesses the situation, but, depending on how twitchy he's feeling, he's known for going in half-cocked, too, especially if he thinks he doesn't need a plan. Longterm adversity is pushed down. He lets it simmer under the surface so it can explode all over everything before he compartmentalizes it again. If it's adversity to someone, he reacts differently depending. He's known for cutting someone off completely, for discounting their input, and fully ignoring it. He's a bit like a kid in that sense. He gets petulant. He will also be the quickest to make threats.

Skills, abilities, and physical weaknesses: Dean was trained at a very young age in combat and marksmanship. He's an expert in hand to hand, a plethora of firearms, knives, and swords. He has a wealth of supernatural knowledge, including wards and sigils that keep out demons and angels. He knows basic Enochian by heart. He also has knowledge of very basic spells, devil traps, and the incantation to force a demon out of a possessed vessel. He also carries with him a wealth of pop culture knowledge. He is quite the functional alcoholic. Often fighting and driving after having a few. (I'm not encouraging this, just using it as an example...).

He is also human, so any physical weakness or anyone's. He can be tired. He can be beaten. He heals normally. Though, it isn't often he hasn't let Cas heal any injuries, so it's been some time since he's lived with a long lasting injury. Without the god armor he's lived with for the last who knows how long, he's still just a better than average fighter who uses his environment to his advantage.

Inventory: The clothes on his back, including his jacket with a stained bloody handprint on the shoulder, keys to his '67 Chevy impala, his smart phone, wallet

What aspects of your character are you most interested in exploring in a horror setting? I am most interested in Dean confronting his own tragedies and shortcomings. Dean will be most susceptible to psychological horror. With that, he will also geek out over the Eldritch undertones. I am itching for some monster combat. I'm interested in Dean being stripped from everything he knows and being forced to trust strangers. Will his self worth go up or plummet again?

What is your character’s mental state upon entering the game? Dean is at his most desperate and most beaten down. His best friend sacrificed himself to save him and he watched Castiel get sucked into the Empty after his declaration of love. Learning of Castiel's deal breaks him to the point of not being able to reply. And, after, he ignores Sam's call and breaks down. His effort at killing Death, which turns out to be the wrong move, just angers her. He once again blames himself for dragging Cas into the trap, for letting him down, and for always letting everyone down. He realizes God is cleaning the Earth, that Sam probably wasn't able to save anybody. It doesn't matter how Cas feels because Cas is gone. Dean lost someone else. Shortly after this, he and his brother seek Chuck out and give up. That's where he is. He realizes that Chuck won. He's ready to fight his brother to the death, to die himself, he just wants humanity back. This is also after being worked up to his angriest for the past few weeks, losing a lot of his compassion and almost coming to blows with Sam again.

What unsettles and frightens your character? What sort of encounters would chip away at your character’s psychological stability? Being reminded of everyone he's let down and lost would chip away at Dean's psyche. Being reminded that his life really does mean nothing. Being confronted by anybody from his past, especially ghoulish versions of them. If he were thrown into an impossible loop of time and have to watch someone die over and over, he would lose it. He would put himself up first. Losing someone he were trying to help would do wonders.

Flying unsettles Dean. Airplanes! But, really, spooky settings usually don't do it for him, but he can definitely get the creeps from a place. He's the guy that watches horror movies even though his life is a horror movie. So, more mundane disappointments will frighten him. Losing everyone. Losing Sam. Getting family back only to lose them. Being rejected by his family.

Losing himself and losing his memory, forgetting everyone is the most terrifying thing to him and it almost happened. Being possessed would also be unsettling. He has his tattoo that is "supposed" to help him, the anti-possession tattoo, but this is a different world.

What horrifying events or genre elements would you like to see utilized in the game? I think I've mentioned most of them! Dean being possessed and doing something to someone he sees as an ally. Glimpses into the future and to trying moments in the past. Dean's loved ones appearing to him and saying more grotesque things. Brief AU ideas, or Dean believing he's someone else for a while just to lift all those obligations off only to crash them all back down into him. Isolated events, like being stuck in one place with one person. Saving someone or defending himself from a haunting. Saving himself someone from a bite -- perhaps that leads to a body horror moment. All sorts!

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