Name: Dean Winchester Door: "I am naughty." Canon: Supernatural Canon Point: Season 15, Episode 20 "Carry On" after the fight in the barn Age: 41 Appearance: Jensen Ackles History: Here! Personality: Mentally, Dean Winchester perseveres. He is doggedly determined when he has a goal in mind. He very rarely gives up. And, when he does let himself, he always pulls himself back together. When he falls apart, he falls apart completely, but it's what happens after that counts. He moves forward. Always.
He is adaptive and good at adjusting to his circumstances. Even when he doesn't belong, he's good at joining the crowd. He's always been the brother with a role to play and a mission to fulfill.
He's the brother that carries out his orders. When he doesn't have doubts about the task at hand, he will complete it. Dean also has very strong morals that have greyed over the years - for the better. One of his friends is a werewolf, and she married a werewolf, and he sees past the 'monster' label now. As long as that monster isn't chowing down on the locals. He's disciplined, too. He will stick to the routine. He'll be the one cleaning his guns and going the maintenance.
Dean's humor is unmatched. His sarcasm is both a weapon and a masterclass in deflection. He will drop a pop culture reference at the top of the hat. While Dean may feign not being interested in something, Dean is actually a closet nerd. He's read every book on the shelf even if he doesn't advertise it, likewise his dad's journal. He has a very wide range of likes genre-wise and it gives him usable knowledge in his real world.
He is also very, very charming to the point of being flirtatious.
Dean is great at improvisation, often inserting himself into a town while on a case. He and his brother identify themselves as FBI agents often, in order to gain access.
Mentally, he also has a very high pain tolerance. He's been tortured before. He's beaten to an inch of his life. On any given day he deals with ten more things than anyone else should plus guilt from any one thing in his head and he holds all that together. Dean makes it look effortless.
...It's anything but effortless.
Dean's emotional and mental weaknesses far outweigh his positive attributes. While he can be flirtatious, that flirtation can turn sexual and over the top on a dime. Dean can dip into the extra side. He's the himbo on Tinder you swiped right on, but that you won't meet again. Over the years, that side definitely hardened over in favor of being more of a "family man."
Dean shuts down very easily. He will hold a grudge. He will give someone the silent treatment. If he feels trust has been broken or like his broken moral code has been bent, he has to take time to process.
Dean's anger issues are borderline clinical. He will rage. He will go off, violently. He will destroy the hood of a car, he will punch a wall. He needs to put that energy somewhere else. He is a furious man. When everything hits the fan anything he holds in explodes. It's one of his constants.
On the flip-side from improvisation, when actually asked to act, Dean is stilted, does not have the talent, and is too focused on how he looks.
While Dean isn't naturally expressive, he does not have a good poker face if he's not trying. He will grumble, he will gripe, he might even whine.
Dean represses years of trauma, disappointment and insecurity at all times. A lot of why Dean the way he is, is how his father treated him, and never believing he was enough for the guy. He always wanted to be his dad's favorite. He feels things deeply, but, expressing them is another issue entirely. It takes nearly dying one of the many times he did for him to say what's on his mind. Castiel gives him a declaration of love and Dean can barely process what's been said before it's too late. And, still, he focuses on 'the goodbye' part of it. Dean believes everyone leaves and everyone dies. He also believes that eventually, between his brother and him, he's the one who will die young. He also lives with the guilt of his actions, from not being there enough for Sammy, for things he did in Hell after dying, to failing Jack the first time.
Dean suffers from depression and PTSD. Often, he's the brother that will not hesitate to sacrifice himself. As far back as the second season, he has a suicidal streak and this never really breaks. Dean does not take care of himself. He's often seen eating burgers, fries, meats, and take out for almost every meal. Dean also has deep, deep issues with alcoholism, often drinking a whole six pack on his own, sometimes alone in his room. Whereas Sam goes for a run, Dean sleeps in. Dean uses alcohol, violence, and getting the job done as his crutches for ignoring everything else. One of his other vices, one night stands, has since decreased over the course of the series. Sex was a vice and a coping mechanism for him, but he's moved past that now. His eye is always on the end of the road, whether that ends bloody - or not. He's just now processing that maybe he has something to contribute, that's he's not as broken as he thinks. He's not daddy's blunt instrument. He loves. Dean does love, but he will express that love in different ways, more in a physical hug or gestures. Acts of kindness and physical touch would be his love languages. But, good luck with getting them. Despite that, he does not have a healthy view of himself and hasn't in a very long time.
A montage in the last episode does prove that Dean is capable of changing his habits, bettering himself, and making good choices. He's just too deep in the darkness for years to see what he's capable of. Even with Lisa by his side back in season 6, he's unable to live that life and have the normal job, because he doesn't feel like he deserves it. And, ultimately, because it puts Lisa and her kid, Ben in danger.
Finally, flip a coin on whether it's a negative or a positive, Dean is greatly self-sacrificing. He will sell his soul for his brother, erase the memories of his chosen family, or downright kill himself if it saves one person he loves. (Hell, one person he doesn't.) But, he will also fight tooth and nail to the death against insurmountable odds. Powers and Abilities: Dean was trained at a very young age in combat and marksmanship. He's an expert in hand to hand, a plethora of firearms, knives, and swords. He has a wealth of supernatural knowledge, including wards and sigils that keep out demons and angels. He knows basic Enochian by heart. He also has knowledge of very basic spells, devil traps, and the incantation to force a demon out of a possessed vessel. He also carries with him a wealth of pop culture knowledge. He is quite the functional alcoholic. Often fighting and driving after having a few. (I'm not encouraging this, just using it as an example...).
Without Chuck's "god armor" (this canon) he's lived with for the last who knows how long, he's still just a better than average fighter who uses his environment to his advantage. Also, indigestion. It's a thing. Inventory: +1 bloody handprint-stained green jacket +1 Terrier Mix, Miracle? (if not, a bottle of West Cork Irish Whiskey) +1 machete, because what's crazier than a crazy guy with a machete Samples: Communicating
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@ jack kerouac
First thing's first, I in no way condone any of this. Except for the freedom of expression and pleasure. I, too, once was down to clown. But, with consent. Always with consent. Still, I'm between screw the fascist elite and, it could be worse. But, then someone mentioned Fort Harmony and clammed up. So, for someone new to this freakshow, indulge me. The good and the bad, because trust me, I thought I'd heard it all.
To be clear, this entire place is wrong, and not like where I come from... without certain website subscriptions. And, again, with a camera crew, consenting actors.
Just saying. Consent's a freaking thing.
You'd get it if you watched the tea video.
Anyway, for those of you that are like me thinking it's not too bad (but not right either, I'm Whitney Houston over here), let's talk. |
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