Someone doesn't need to be your blood to be a part of you. Yeah, Sam's me, I'm Sam (but also not), Jack is as much you as he is us. You promised Kelly Kline you'd look after him and Cas, you have. You did. You stumbled into it, but, Cas, you were a dad.
You're not at capacity
You expand. You a few weeks ago proved that. Your big, untimely speech I still get to kick your ass for prove it.
And Jack absorbed Chuck's mojo and chose. Look, I hate to think about it this way, too, but maybe it was what Jack was meant for. Better than ruling Hell or Heaven with a nephilim fist. And didn't he bring you back? He did that. He wanted that. You can't let your world quiet spiral into worrying about Jack. Look, maybe Jack has it in the bag, maybe he's exactly what our world needed and maybe he's hoarding souls and Sam's lining the troops up to stop another power-hungry God, but all I know is that we're not back there and Sam is and Jack is. And you know what, I know Jack's not doing that. Because Jack is good. Because Jack is curious and loving and he loves our world. He had a pet snake. Who has a pet snake.
You're not removed from your own life. Our life. You can worry, that's what a parent does, but you can't let it weigh you down. You know how I know Sam is good? Jack is good? I just do. Sam's gonna get married and he's gonna have a kid or two. And Claire's probably popping the question to Kaya right now. And Jack's listening to someone's prayer and reimagining Heaven.
Chuck's human and we're here. But, Sam and Jack. They're going to be fine.
( They also have to be, but he can't let that show through. )
[It's a simple statement. Castiel has been beaten by Dean before, brutalized, and the same was true in the reverse. He didn't particularly like squaring away with Dean, and he knew it was a metaphor but all the same, he can't help the sarcastic comment. A little levity to their current predicament.]
I know. Sometimes it's just harder to see, being away. You made me feel, and as you know feelings are very rarely one thing. I've come to find that they're an overflowing vat.
You lost your vitality in a poker match against a man witch, and you're asking me that. I always want to be on your team, any team you're on, but I'm not sure I want to play cards with you.
[Especially when that thing didn't seem to get in the way of Dean calling him flaccid and limp before.]
But regardless - thanks for texting me. I know you're only a few rooms away. I can feel you... but it helped me get my mind off of what I can't control. For now.
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Date: 2022-03-07 06:40 pm (UTC)Someone doesn't need to be your blood to be a part of you. Yeah, Sam's me, I'm Sam (but also not), Jack is as much you as he is us. You promised Kelly Kline you'd look after him and Cas, you have. You did. You stumbled into it, but, Cas, you were a dad.
You're not at capacity
You expand. You a few weeks ago proved that. Your big, untimely speech I still get to kick your ass for prove it.
And Jack absorbed Chuck's mojo and chose. Look, I hate to think about it this way, too, but maybe it was what Jack was meant for. Better than ruling Hell or Heaven with a nephilim fist. And didn't he bring you back? He did that. He wanted that. You can't let your world quiet spiral into worrying about Jack. Look, maybe Jack has it in the bag, maybe he's exactly what our world needed and maybe he's hoarding souls and Sam's lining the troops up to stop another power-hungry God, but all I know is that we're not back there and Sam is and Jack is. And you know what, I know Jack's not doing that. Because Jack is good. Because Jack is curious and loving and he loves our world. He had a pet snake. Who has a pet snake.
You're not removed from your own life. Our life. You can worry, that's what a parent does, but you can't let it weigh you down. You know how I know Sam is good? Jack is good? I just do. Sam's gonna get married and he's gonna have a kid or two. And Claire's probably popping the question to Kaya right now. And Jack's listening to someone's prayer and reimagining Heaven.
Chuck's human and we're here. But, Sam and Jack. They're going to be fine.
( They also have to be, but he can't let that show through. )
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Date: 2022-03-07 06:47 pm (UTC)[It's a simple statement. Castiel has been beaten by Dean before, brutalized, and the same was true in the reverse. He didn't particularly like squaring away with Dean, and he knew it was a metaphor but all the same, he can't help the sarcastic comment. A little levity to their current predicament.]
I know. Sometimes it's just harder to see, being away. You made me feel, and as you know feelings are very rarely one thing. I've come to find that they're an overflowing vat.
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Date: 2022-03-07 06:53 pm (UTC)I know
So what we do is hope for the best
Yeah, that never changes
Much as I'm good at not giving mine off
( Like you're not a transparent ball of feelings, Dean Winchester. )
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Date: 2022-03-07 07:05 pm (UTC)Right. Your pokerface is impeccable.
I'm sure it doesn't get any easier.
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Date: 2022-03-07 07:07 pm (UTC)We get what we get
Who wouldn't want me on their poker team
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Date: 2022-03-07 07:09 pm (UTC)I always want to be on your team, any team you're on, but I'm not sure I want to play cards with you.
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Date: 2022-03-07 07:15 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2022-03-07 08:54 pm (UTC)I'm well aware of your capability
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Date: 2022-03-07 09:00 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-03-07 09:45 pm (UTC)Did something happen?
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Date: 2022-03-07 11:31 pm (UTC)no cas
it's just a guy thing
no guy likes to talk about impotence
you know nothing has happened firsthand
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Date: 2022-03-08 12:19 am (UTC)Guy things.
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Date: 2022-03-08 12:20 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-03-08 12:27 am (UTC)[Especially when that thing didn't seem to get in the way of Dean calling him flaccid and limp before.]
But regardless - thanks for texting me. I know you're only a few rooms away. I can feel you... but it helped me get my mind off of what I can't control. For now.
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Date: 2022-03-08 01:42 am (UTC)Unless I'm indisposed or asleep
Or dead
Text when you need to
You're not alone in this
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Date: 2022-03-08 01:59 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-03-08 02:43 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-03-08 03:03 am (UTC)You should sleep while sleep might still find you.
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Date: 2022-03-08 03:05 am (UTC)Rub one out to me
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