( That's not what he means. He holds a hand up, ready to shoot that down because he would never put it that way. He's not accusing the angel, he's asking him to be honest. But, he turns the tables. Asks if Dean wants something, if he needs something, like he did only four years before. If he ever needs anything from his vessel, or wants. He just has to ask.
He doesn't know how things were before, or how he would define it. He looked after Cas, checked in when he could. Fell under the influence of flowers and bracelets with him. He lived his half of a life.
It never felt like they were on the same footing.
Why does it still feel that way. )
I kept that bracelet. The compass. It found you. You found me. ( We find each other. ) And the white roses wore off. I didn't say anything to you because I didn't know what to say. And then you were gone and I was alone. I sent Sam to voicemail.
( He cried. He broke down. )
Part of why we didn't end Chuck completely was what you said. I don't know if I believe in it or me, but you did. You do. Then, it was enough.
( He still doesn't know now. )
Are you still in love with me? Is that what you were saying?
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Date: 2022-02-11 10:01 pm (UTC)He doesn't know how things were before, or how he would define it. He looked after Cas, checked in when he could. Fell under the influence of flowers and bracelets with him. He lived his half of a life.
It never felt like they were on the same footing.
Why does it still feel that way. )
I kept that bracelet. The compass. It found you. You found me. ( We find each other. ) And the white roses wore off. I didn't say anything to you because I didn't know what to say. And then you were gone and I was alone. I sent Sam to voicemail.
( He cried. He broke down. )
Part of why we didn't end Chuck completely was what you said. I don't know if I believe in it or me, but you did. You do. Then, it was enough.
( He still doesn't know now. )
Are you still in love with me? Is that what you were saying?